The sun is out!
The birds are chirping!
The grass is green-ing!
But inside? The five-year old is a raging beast of provocation and irrationality.
I went to let the chickens out and thought about just staying out there, in my jammies, waiting for the day to be over.
Here's an example of recent issues:
Xi is at the counter doing homework and playfully sitting on two stools. Echo rears her head from her play and sees this. She flies into a rage and shoves Xi off the stools ranting about how "she can't snatch that stool away from me!". She screams, cries, and rages.
I'm practicing yoga and Echo circles. She asks me to clip a barrette into her hair and when I am done I go back to my pose. She has curled her toes under the mat and is now F-ING MAD that I am keeping her from using the mat the way she wants to. She screams, cries, and rages.
And you'd think that with this kind of madness the big sister would steer clear right? Would give the demon operating her little sister a wide berth, yes? NOPE. That Xi is right in there trying to use what Echo's using, trying to play a game with Echo that Echo doesn't want to play, trying to insert herself into the eye of the storm by any means necessary.
See why early morning frost and chickens sound better?
This is day three of this. When Nathan kissed me goodbye this morning I questioned his love for me, not believing that he would leave me with these two FOR THE WHOLE DAY.
Why is this happening?
-Echo is probably fighting a virus.
-Xi's personal make-up and life situation pre-determines an interest in not playing alone, in not being left out even if what she's being left out of is insane raging.
-The seasons are shifting and transitions (even positive ones) throw children off kilter.
What am I going to do?
-write a blog post!
-receive empathy graciously
-make sure we are NEVER trying to get somewhere at a certain time
-empty my bladder frequently so I'm not holding my pee
-drink enough water, eat enough food
-try to keep my voice soft
-do what it takes to squeeze in some yoga
-let them fight and/or stop fearing they may fight
-dig out empathy for them, even robotic-ly until I actually feel it